Okay no. I wrote this post just now and it was terrible so I’m doing it again.
I’m not okay in the slightest; I won’t lie. Originally, I wrote a horrible post about how I wanted to die and that’s still in technicality true, but it’s not as manic as it was before.
Yeah. I’m not good. This is a stupid thing to say but PLEASE don’t worry – it’ll pass, I promise. How can it not – i’m me, after all. Whining about this makes me feel selfish and shit so I’ll try not to.
I feel guilty. I’ve cried a lot over homework and feeling horrendous and the fact that I took some of it out on my dad when he’s done nothing. But NO – I need sleep. I have this awful feeling surrounding me that I can’t get rid of and I’m so tired of everything.
Tomorrow, this will pass. I went psychotic towards myself earlier but it’s okay. I’m managing, and that’s the important part.
If you read my previous version of this post, I’m sorry for that. It was unpleasant to say the least. I still have those thoughts, but I’m scared I’m just crying for help like some pathetic loser.
Are you guys okay? I’m sorry that this kind of thing has basically become my blog. I didn’t mean for it to.
Your comments are what keep me going, honestly. Thank you for that.
From Elm 🙂