Y’know those days where you feel sick and literally don’t want to talk to ANYONE, and you’re frustrated with EVERYTHING anyone says, and then your heart starts pounding and you walk down the corridor and you’re in a haze of confusion and you just can’t and then you start writing a run-on sentence and STOP THE SENTENCE OKAY.
That’s how I felt. That’s how I FEEL? I feel kind of ill, sick, irritated. It’s probably because physics didn’t go so well, and before that I was sat in form and felt excluded as fuck (not anyone’s fault though). I have a choked up feeling in my throat, and an unsteadiness to me that means I am DEFINITELY not feeling my best, but it’s okay.
The highlight of my day, though, was Red and Wren who cheered me up by being themselves, without even knowing I was upset; even I didn’t know I was sad until right at the end of the day. Does that make sense? When things just hit you, SLAP bang in the face, and you can’t decide why you’re feeling so shitty?
In these situations, you’ve just got to let it pass; that’s what I do anyway. I’d suggest talking to someone if it were anyone else, but it’s ME. Perhaps I will, perhaps I won’t.
Arghhhh. Am I just blathering on about bullshit? I hope not. I hope I’ve reached out to someone somehow, because I want to help you through my words.
If you’re having a day like the one I just had, remember that it’s temporary. You might feel trapped and a little lost, as well as just plain queasy (not physically but mentally?), but it’s not permanent. Getting through it – the little things – builds up strength for the big things, where you can’t move for feeling so awful.
Well, that’s my day in a nutshell: confused, upset, MORE confusion, irritated – but with spots of happiness. FUCK, I sound like a weather forecast.
Have you had a good day? GOD, this post is so boring. Think I might go and sleep – and by that I mean read. Or homework. Or SOMETHING.
From Elm π
As the saying goes, “after a dark night, there’s a bright day”
Exactly! π
i relate to this so much π i love your posts.
OMG thank you! You’re so lovely π So glad you can relate, but then again, NOT glad because this feeling sucks. Let’s just say – I’m glad I’m not alone!
aww i really hope you have more of even better days. but then again, one can’t truly enjoy them without having bad days.
True – what’s that phrase? You can’t appreciate the good without getting hit by the bad? That’s not it at all, but I know what you’re getting at. And I hope YOU have amazing days, too. You deserve them π
aw thank you boo
Welcome! π Haven’t seen you in a while Btw, how’ve you been?
ive been really swamped with school work ugh. exams are coming up. what about you?
UGH, same; mock exams just finished π¦
how did you do?
No idea – we get our results on the 1st
ooh do tell me okay?
YES of course!
This is so relatable! Oh and wow 999 followers! Just one to go Elm π
HELP I KNOW WHAT IS THIS OMG
Technically you are at 1000 right now! IT’S SO COOL! CONGRATS!
I’M SCREAMING
OOH MY GODDDD
You really deserve it! 1000 Followers!!! That’s crazy AWESOME! π
THANK YOU!!!
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Awww Elmmm. Just remember you’re lovely π
Thank you so much!
I literally felt exactly like this today π¦ hope you feel better soon though!
Thank you so much, and to you too! π
Thank you π
Ver relatable, but always remember there is a sun hiding behind a cloud! ^^
EXACTLY! π
1002 FOLLOWERS!! π ELM, YOU ARE AMAZING!! I too have those moods sometimes where I don’t even know what I’m feeling I just know that it’s kinda shitty. They suck, but they pass and I hope yours passes soon too π
IT’s PASSED BECAUSE FOLLOWERS!!!! THANK YOU LUNA! But yep, I do know how you feel. A cloud descends and you just can’t do anything.
So. Relatable.
AHHH thank you!
Is it bad that you just posted about a crappy day and I cheered up reading it? Coz that’s what just happened. I’m feeling happy, and I’m feeling guilty for feeling happy when you were sharing your crappy mood. Does that make sense? (God Elm, we both seem to ask that question for an infinite number of times, don’t you think? XD )
No, it’s NOT bad and yes, it DOES make sense. I think “Does that make sense?” should be our catchphrase π
Haha, it totally should! Imagine, we’ll keep saying things like, “I’m having an apple! Does that make sense?” or “I’m going to sleep. Does that make sense?” Oh, we’ll be laughing all the time! XD XD
YES! π Dise’re like “Does that make sense?” mates. xD
Ahhh now whenever I say “Does that make sense?” I’ll be thinking of you! π
Same here! π